I used to maintain a blog that I wrote anonymously on... this is a post from that blog that I wrote back in September of last year (2016). I feel that today, Valentine's day is a beautiful time to share my musings on this subject again, peace, love and light to you all ૐ.
Having been and continuing to be on a journey of the mind, body and spirit, or as I call the soul – I found that to love myself at the deepest level is to love my soul. My soul, which encapsulates all of my being and transcends my physical body, my soul, which is me – this is the me that I strive to love unconditionally. The body, my person that the soul is displayed through can deceive others, leading them to believe that I am happy, when inside I am not, or that I am mad, when in fact I am simply tired. Deception of the soul by the body comes about when one’s soul and body are not completely in sync, to which mine are becoming. I know this because I lived it. For several years, I experienced moments of clarity, moments where all made sense, regardless of how many details were not determined or how much was still up in the air in my life, sense was present because my soul and body were in sync, my physical mind and my spiritual soul energy were walking alongside one another instead of one in front of the other.
This journey towards connection and understanding of the two, can lead to moments of complete disconnection of the soul and the body, leaving one for a moment without the soul in the body, as the soul takes flight and is “set free” to observe the actions of the body from above. These moments, while rare for me, I am told come to occur more often with practice and understanding, they may be called ‘out of body’ experiences. They are beautiful, providing an increased sense of self-awareness, truly of soul-awareness as the two entities of oneself work in tandem to deeper a person’s understanding of their ‘soul-self’.
I feel that to love my self, truly, fiercely and unconditionally, is to love my soul, to truly honor my soul. So how does one do this, this honoring of the soul?
First, I breathe. I ensure that throughout each day, I take time, whether it be when driving, sipping tea, on a phone call, practicing yoga or at the gym, talking to a friend or stranger, getting ready for a night’s rest – I breathe, intentionally and with love for the body, my body that my soul shines forth through.
Second, I accept my ‘shortcomings’, if I am to call them that. I recite mantras such as, ‘you are whole complete and perfect’, knowing that I have more to learn and skills to improve upon, but that my soul is beautiful and perfect on the journey. I feel the words course through my veins as the breath moves through my body. When I am hurting, be it physically, mentally or emotionally, I then send extra love and attention to those areas of my body by focusing the breath and the mantra chosen for that day on that specific place in need of healing loving energy.
Third, I embrace. I embrace myself, in hug, in loving and forgiving ‘self-talk’, and through the actions I take… I honor myself as I move forward with each day, working to ensure that I foster a peaceful and safe space for my soul to thrive in my body and environment each and everyday. It is true, that some days I fall short. It is true that somedays I do not feel that I know what I am doing. It is true that this may all be easier said than done, but the reward – the act of soul love – had empowered me in a way like nothing else before.
I look in the mirror and I now see beauty radiating from the inside out. I find it hard now to talk negatively about myself, my body or my actions and when I do try those negative ‘self talk’ words on for size, they don’t seem to even fit right, even if just for a moment anymore. I love that. The journey of self love is setting myself free from the limitations that I place upon my being. It allows me to soar to new heights and to fully be without concern of the opinions of others, so long as I honor my true ‘soul-self’. My soul, what does it feel like? It feels like love, so I honor love. I stand in love. I do now and I will continue to moving forward with each day of my life. I do not believe this journey to be without moments of straying off the path, or without trials and tribulations, but with understanding of my soul, I feel those moments to be more manageable …
I invite everyone to try on soul love… dig in deep to who you are, a distinct being from the environment you live within and are a part of – breathe in acceptance of self, breathe out judgement of self. Breathe in love, exhale frustration. I have a hunch that you will find a place of peace, of course I am in the beginning stages of this journey, but trust me – it is already surrounded by beauty!
A spiritual being on a physical journey, striving to make a positive impact on this world through my actions and loving intention. I believe that we are all capable of greatness, it is how we channel this great energy that matters... I choose to express it in the name of -- peace and love.